younghabitats:

do you ever realize things you didn’t want to know? i need people. i need certain people. i need people who do not want to be needed. and i am this being that i don’t know how to bend or melt or fix. i don’t think my body fits around anyone else’s body, i don’t think there is room for my head in your head. and i want there to be. i want my cake, and i want to eat it it too. i am unlovable- not because i am different but because what i want does not exist. i was made wrong. i am idealistic, but i am cheap. and i will have to live with that and so many other things. it is never going to happen.

(via barbieandken)